who can i blame? didnt i bring this all onto myself anyways? everyone told me no and i still went for it. my heart told me that this was the right thing to do, and that i will never regret this, therefore i will be happy. but why does it hurt now? i wish i was as carefree as you are. i wish i was as open as you are. i wish i could care less, but i everytime i get to this point, only when i feel helpless, i tend to let go. i am not some sort of force of nature. i do not want to play your God. i just wanna be held the same way i held you. if i dropped everything, will i still receive the same ignorance that i do today? why do i care so much? do i care too much? i wanna be carefree too.
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