i still remember that day when you flushed all my weed and cigarettes down the drain. that was a struggling fight that i had to fight for. but it was bad for me. that's why you did it. as great as this analogy goes, i want it back. i want everything that was bad for me back. my system urges for it. if the world constantly puts me back into that place, maybe im the one that is wrong and i shouldnt be so naive that i can change the world with my own morals, beliefs and opinions. it could possibly be life's way of steering me back to the way i was before. i thought i was a better person. but guess not. bring it on. i did it once, i can do it again.
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it's been a while since. no matter how tough it has been, how much stress ive put on to myself. i've been putting it off. and not letting it bother me. "looking on the bright side" but tonight, im sick of it. im tired of this. i dont wanna be that person anymore. no, not again. i want to do everything for you. but what for? sometimes i forget what the reason is. i totally regret going back there. did i know this was coming? no not really. the timing was just too good. perfect place, perfect time, the perfect person. let the net catch all the fish in the ocean and leave nothing for others. i need to get this out to you. before im too late. or you fall too far. but seems to me, patience is in our way. as i remember the days were i was being dubbed with nicknames like "impatient master" as a child, i now step down from that title for you. this is my world now, playing the waiting game. how much longer? i'll just sit back and enjoy the show. cause.
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