i've been in an incredibly bad mood. terribly bummed.

i think i know the reason; but somehow i think i'm trying hard to tell myself that that is not the reason.

i don't want to be unreasonable or expect too much; but at the same time, am i? well, in comparing myself with others, i don't think i am. but maybe i'm wrong.

i've always considered myself to be straightforward and frank - i don't believe in keeping things to myself. but now when honesty's required, i just can't seem to be honest. i mean, i don't even really know what to say, or how to say it.

ah. whatever.